Sarah Siskind

All songs written by Sarah Siskind, Red Request Music/BMI 
Admin. By Concord Music  

1. ME AND NOW

Deep in the night I’m saving up for when I grow hungry and reach for the cup 

Can’t turn to handsome can’t turn to sweet 

Can’t lean on what I think could be the missing piece 

It’s just me and now, it’s just me and now 

Just feed me water, and give me sun 

Feed me images of my daughter and my son 

Say it lasts forever, say that it is good 

That Living for this moment is always understood 

It’s just me and now, it’s just me and now 

Or I could rush into tomorrow, I could swing open my arms 

I could help somebody figure out why their life is so hard 

I could give them the answers so I don’t have to ask myself 

Why I never really took those same things down from my shelf 

It’s just me and now, it’s just me and now 

  

So just be careful what we go looking for 

Go asking for clarity and you might get so much more 

Only God completes me and he says to be still 

Why’s it so hard to try and see how that feels 

It’s just me and now, it’s just me and now 

Or I could rush into tomorrow, I could swing open my arms 

I could help somebody figure out why their life is so hard 

I could give them the answers so I don’t have to ask myself 

Why I never really took those same things down from my shelf 

It’s just me and now, it’s just me and now 

Is life a lesson, is love a cure 

Is it all an impression or something we learned  

Only God completes me and he says be still 

Why’s it so hard to try and see how that really feels 

It’s just me and now, it’s just me and now 

 

2. MODERN APPALACHIA 

I heard the sound of Dolly sing - and I breathed in every note 

Stories told through melody with equal pain to hope 

It was modern appalachia - so ancient, so free 

It began to sew the fabric of me 

(Then) I heard the voice of Mahalia and I beamed with a childish grin 

She sang to me about her Jesus and I wanted to know Him 

It was modern appalachia - so old, so new 

When the sacred met the sorrow, (i knew) it was true 

Finding out who we are - Finding out who we are 

Every day we’re finding out 

Then I heard the sound of Bill Frisell - I stopped right there and wept 

Without a word, just notes he played, painted pictures on the fret 

It was modern appalachia - so ancient, and so free  

Speaking straight to every color in me 

I heard the voice of Paul Brady and every hair did rise 

I wondered how a sound so pure was this side of the skies 

It was modern Appalachia - so old, so new 

It became part of the landscape I view 

Finding out who we are 

We’re finding out who we are 

Every day we’re finding out 

3. CAROLINA fret 3 

You said I looked like a child when I danced  

I think I broke some rules that night 

Honesty comes at the wildest times 

In a late night hotel fight 

But there’s a fine line between down to earth and underground 

Hey if you have one more of those you might just swim to your grave 

I know because I understand - There’s something in this red clay 

But there’s a fine line between down to earth and underground 

We live the fine line like it’s a fault line 

The earth could shift and that will be it 

This state that we’re in makes lovers out of friends 

Carolina 

Who you are isn’t where you’re from 

But where you’re from is always close 

And when you go digging in that dirt 

Get ready for what you fear the most 

But it’s a fine line between down to earth and underground  

We live the fine line like it’s a fault line 

The earth could shift and that will be it 

This state that we’re in makes lovers out of friends 

Carolina 

Hey if you have one more of those you might swim to your grave 

I know because I understand - There’s something in this red clay 

4. THE ONE 

Guess you're out there on the road, She's beside you so the story goes 
I bet the leather seat’s still torn and the window still won't roll down 
You're headed somewhere in the night, Gonna take her to see the lights 
I bet you're holding to her hand while you've got the other on the wheel 
I know how that feels 

What if I wanted to be the one to walk away 
What if I wanted to be the one to go 
What if I wanted to be the one to say goodbye 
And find somebody else to keep me warm 
I hope she's an angel, she gives you wings and makes you feel strong 
What if I wanted to be the one 

There's no use crying about the past, You've moved on, not looking back 
I bet you've already told her that you see the sun in her eyes 
Well I know that lie 

What if I wanted to be the one to walk away 
What if I wanted to be the one to go 
What if I wanted to be the one to say goodbye 
And find somebody else to keep me warm 
I hope she's an angel, she gives you wings and makes you feel strong 
What if I wanted to be the one 

I guess everything happens as it should  
I guess I just didn’t do everything I could... 

What if I wanted to be the one to walk away 
What if I wanted to be the one to go 
What if I wanted to be the one to say goodbye 
And find somebody else to keep me warm 
I hope she's an angel, she gives you wings and makes you feel strong 
What if I wanted to be the one 

 

5. IN THE MOUNTAINS 

In the mountains 

I am tending to my heart 

I go walking with the stars 

In the mountains 

I am closer to the sky 

I’m an eagle, not a sparrow 

In the mountains, out of sight 

In the mountains 

I can let my burdens go 

I go walking in the snow 

In the mountains 

I feel closer to God 

I’m a shepherd, not a soldier 

In the mountains, out of sight 

If you can find me you can sit down beside me 

But, don’t forsake me 

For I am so happy... 

In the mountains 

I can do what is right 

I’m an eagle, not a sparrow 

I’m a shepherd, not a soldier 

In the mountains, out of sight 

 

6. A LITTLE BIT TROUBLED  

Daddy’s on the road  

Mama’s on the bottle 

Baby’s gonna be okay just a little bit troubled 

So what’s your story - What’s your affliction 

Did you hear the truth  - Or a whole lot of fiction 

Do you look at your hands and wish that you had more time  

If you could go back  - And stand under that tree 

Would you forgive yourself - for your history 

And is it worth the chance, a second dance coming ‘round 

Daddy’s on the road  

Mama’s on the bottle 

Baby’s gonna be okay just a little bit troubled 

He sees the mirror and stops to admire 

But can’t remember how he looked as a child 

Do we try to retrace - or try to replace it now 

If I could go back  - And stand under that tree 

Would I forgive myself - for my history 

And is it worth the chance, a second dance coming now 

Daddy’s on the road  

Mama’s on the bottle 

Baby’s gonna be okay just a little bit troubled 

 

7. MAYBE THERE’S LOVE BETWEEN US

I’d like to wait at your door 

I’d like to see if there’s something more 

Maybe there’s love between us, maybe there’s love between us 

I’d like to talk to you  

I’d like to see more of you 

Maybe there’s love between us, maybe there’s love between us 

Time sure goes slow when you’re alone 

Things sure can change when you rearrange your heart 

And make space for another 

And make room to discover 

Maybe there’s love between us, maybe there’s love between us 

I’d like to know how you feel 

I’d like to ask you what is real to you 

Maybe there’s love between us, maybe there’s love between us 

Time sure goes slow when you’re alone 

Things sure can change when you rearrange your heart 

And make space for another 

And make room to discover 

Maybe there’s love between us, maybe there’s love between us 

 

8. DANNY 

Danny oh Danny - turn your eyes to me, It’s a pleasure to be seen by you 

Danny oh Danny all the other girls are mad,  

For the evening we had sure was true 

Have you gone a wandering, a wandering tonight 

Have you gone a wandering for good 

When you said you’d meet me in the new moonlight 

O Danny - I really thought you would 

Danny oh Danny did you find another town, Was the sun going down on this one 

Danny oh Danny did another turn your head 

Did she make up your bed in the morn’ 

Or have you gone a wandering, a wandering tonight 

Have you gone a wandering for good 

Have you led another heart into the moonlight 

O Danny - I always thought you would 

Danny oh danny do you ever think of me, And what still could be so true 

Danny oh danny why do you have to run 

It’s a pleasure to be loved by you 

When you’re done a wandering, a wandering tonight 

Will you stop the wandering for good 

Will you finally meet me there in that new moonlight 

Oh, Danny - I really wish you would 

 

9. PUNK ROCK GIRL 

Why should i care anyway - if he doesn’t look this way 

If he has nothing to say after the fire 

Am I just wasting my time - is my dollar just worth a dime 

have i just convinced myself - I might get rich this time 

I used to be a punk rock girl singing in a punk rock band 

Now I’m just a country pearl slowly slipping off the strand 

I used to be a hard core chick - heart of steel and skin so thick 

I’m just a folk fatale, falling apart for the innocence of love 

Why should I make this into art - why should I care about his heart 

We are just steps apart from strangers anyway 

How did it even get to this - why should I care about a kiss 

Why can’t I just not give a shit and be on my way 

I used to be a punk rock girl singing in a punk rock band 

Now I’m just a country pearl slowly slipping off the strand 

I used to be a hard core chick a heart of steel and skin so thick 

Now I’m just a folk fatale, falling apart for the innocence of love 

Now I’m just a folk fatale, falling apart 

I used to be a punk rock girl, I used to be a punk rock girl 

Am I so strong that I am weak - so loud I shouldn’t speak 

My liquid courage brought me here  - trusty counterpart to fear 

I’m driving up, I’m stumbling in with blurry eyes and sweaty skin 

He opens up the door and I say, hey!  I used to be a punk rock girl... 

 

10. PORCHLIGHT 

Wishing it was different doesn't really change a thing 

Push it to the limit or don't do anything 

This is where I'm living this is where I try to fly 

You could never guess where I go at night 

Wishing I could see you when there's no one else around 

We could seek our refuge in this tiny seaside town 

This is where I'm living this is where I found my home 

You could never guess what i do for fun 

If you drive tonight I'll turn on the porchlight 

If you drive tonight I'll turn on the porchlight 

Wishing it was different doesn't really change a thing 

You are so wrapped in it you would never come to me 

That it's where you're living, that is where you have to hide 

I bet I can guess how you feel at night 

If you drive tonight I'll turn on the porchlight 

If you drive tonight I'll turn on the porchlight 

My heart is still alive, my heart is still alive, my heart is still alive for you (x2) 

Wishing it was different doesn't really change a thing 

 

11. REST IN THE RIVER 

All the troubles of my mother 

All the troubles of my Dad 

All the troubles of the brother 

All the troubles we’ve had 

Let them rest in the river when I pray 

Rest in the river when I pray 

Let them rest in the river when I pray 

All the troubles we’ve had 

All the troubles of my daughter 

All the troubles of my son 

All the troubles of my lover 

All the races we’ve run 

Let them rest in the river when I pray 

Rest in the river when I pray 

Let them rest in the river when I pray 

All the races we’ve run 

All the troubles, all the troubles 

All the troubles, let them rest in the river when I pray 

  

All the troubles of my heart 

All the troubles of my bones 

All the troubles of my mind 

All the troubles I’ve known 

All the troubles, all the troubles 

All the troubles, let them rest in the river when I pray 

All the troubles, all the troubles 

All the troubles, let them rest in the river when I pray 

 

12. I WON’T STOP

I fell again - maybe I did myself in 

I misread the signs - laid it all on the line 

But I won’t stop loving like this - I won’t stop losing myself 

I was made from love  

I was bathed in love 

I was betrayed by love 

But I forgave love 

And I won’t stop 

I can feel the night - rushing in to spill 

Words I should not speak flow with water’s will 

But I won’t stop loving like this - I won’t stop losing myself 

I was made from love  

I was raised by love 

And I am crazed by love 

I am a slave to love 

And I won’t stop 

I won’t stop loving like this - I won’t stop losing myself 

I was made from love  

I was bathed in love 

I’ve been betrayed by love 

But I always forgave love 

And I won’t stop